諗野 I love thinking

不知道何時開始

腦袋總是不停的思考 －諗野

想生活、想工作、想愛情、想朋友、想未來、想過去，沒有pattern 的細節在腦海不停穿插。

最近想像到很多很美好的畫面，常常在心裡想著想著在現實不知不覺面上都掛上了笑容 －眯眯咀笑。

但在現實生活發生的，很多時都不會是你想像的美好。期望太高，很容易便換來失落。

其實都是自己腦袋停不了在想像各種事情和畫面所做成的 －想得太多／諗多左。

有期望是好事，有期望是樂觀的反應。但想像得太多便會put yourself into a situation that 好似無野搵野黎唔開心。

自我調整的時間又到了。最近都留意到腦袋停不了的想東想西真是很累人，洗澡和臨睡覺前的時間之前都想太多事情，令到把現實生活都帶到去夢鄉，影響了睡眠質素甚至每晚都發夢。然後就係一個很差的cycle: Thinking too much-> Bad sleeping quality -> Feel tired and bad mood in real life-> Thinking too much-> Bad sleeping quality。現在決定要控制想像太多的時間，意識到又在不停幻想美好的畫面時做閱讀／打機, pull myself back. 

Pull myself back. But keep expecting goodness in life. 人生總不可以沒月幻想和期望吧?

我沒有讀屎片

讀書，除了知識，就是讓我們有能力分辯是非。

夢想不能當飯吃，沒飯吃不代表沒有夢想。

每個人最不應該做的事
是盲目為別人改變

Parallel Universe

Parallel Universe 平行時空的慨念早幾年開始在網上見過，直至近年有追看Fringe 才認識多了一點點。有時會想，如果真的有another universe, 那裡會是怎樣，又會有另一個自己生存著嗎? 那個自己又跟Fringe一樣會遇著差不多的人但擔當的角色又全都不同了嗎? 又因為看過NANA, 總是相信真的有世上的另一個我，一個跟自己一樣又很相反的人，那麼她又在做什麼呢? 有一天我會認識到她嗎?

這是好奇，再諗下如果遇到同樣的問題她會用什麼的心態看待呢? 她....（下刪一百個例子）......會點呢?


喂，諗諗諗下，理人咁多做咩?.... 在自己的世界裡好好咁生活，不就是很好了嗎?

"想甚麼又往往得不到甚麼，還是不要多想。"  ---- 黃翠如

Do not be friends with me

I can offer no help, so do not be friends with me. I do not make friends with purposes.

Live with Love Now

Many sad news recently about people dying from car crash, earthquake, bombs attack...

And we all are aware again that how much we should value life and people around you. 

Many years ago, I was a girl who did not really care about Friendship and people around me. The thing is, I had a lot a lot of friends and I felt that they thought I was important to them so I could just always ignore them, do not reply their calls, bullshit about them to some other people, say something really bad when they ring me in the morning, etc. During my process of growing up, I lost some friends, whom I had not really put my heart into the friendship with them at all so I still feel fine; and I still have some friends, whom I had not really cherish them in the past, and I still have them, they still have me, too. I am so touched and inspired. Now people are so so important to me. I cannot live without them. p.s. I see my doggie - Toffee as one of those people. 

Value the YOUR PEOPLE, value the beautifulness of this world. There are so many talented people, so many precious life and so many TRUE LOVE. Do not just say 'I Love You' and 'I Miss You' when they cannot say "Me too" . 

Eric Clapton - Tears in Heaven

IGNORANCE IS BLISS

我心裡知道

1. 其實我真的不是一個留得住的人
2. I am no workaholic. I am a playaholic (12122012)
3. 當工作充斥生活，我分不清自己想要一個什麼的生活。(19122012)
4.This Holiday fucking saved me. Keep playing! (28122012)
5. 身心突然接近打回原形，我心理質素不好，所以很累，我認。 (10012013)
6. 又其實我只是希望有人類的基本要求 ﹣ 休息和娛樂。Sim City 啲人仔都要訓覺啦。 (10012013)
7. "你生活在別人的眼神裡，就迷失在自己的心路上。" (13012013)

一切已經很不一樣

one year time, I and you are all so different. Or just the same?

I am really missing something

我自身難保

WHAT WOULD LAST FOREVER

We all should have our dream

Since we were a kid, since we were in high school, since we got into college
we know what we dream about

We know it
But some may have forgotten it for a long long time

We know it

So we need
to keep it
to save it
to guard it
to remember it
to chase for it

CHASE HARD


Life is short.

Only your dream is what worths you to work your ass off

Trust me

What we are working on, is just a stage in our life. What we are working on, is just something to help gear us up. What we are working on, is not going to last forever.

YOUR DREAM DOES!

So to my friends and myself:

Be a DREAMER
YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE


LET'S ROCK OUR LIFE

A bit emotional



最近重拾了聽收音機的習慣

今天早上903 DJ 播了這首歌

衝天救兵 x Supper Moment 《最後晚餐》

上班的時候, 自己又開出來聽

很有意義,
更充滿著回憶


聽著, 我突然哭了

輕鬆d 啦啦啦啦啦啦

在新地方上班上了快一個月了
同事很好，教我很多東西。很多事情還未上手
system 上的東西仍然很多錯漏，幸好他們都包涵包涵
也有很cool 的，撩佢講野，一係應你唔望你，一係應都唔應你

座位離我自己的team 有點遠，不是有messenger 我根本無咩機會同佢地傾幾句閒話
這樣這便開始有點緊張
我覺得要融入自己的team 很難
那麼我便覺得自己好像只是一個過客..每日執excel, 開下task，同客& Editors 每日傾幾個call。
這個慨念，我想是因為我現在是一個Temp, 幾個月續一次約的Temp，令我好怕自己在這裡沒有「存在價值」。沒有這個「價值」，你便不知道幾個月後你又會在哪裡..


沒有想過原來這個situation 會令自己壓力大了。
我也知道Manager 感受到我緊張了，令到我普通的一個反應他也覺我是在緊張。
真是糟糕!

然後我，有一天上班，　
突然想起以前還在讀書的時候，
讀書時工作的時候，
一直我表現也不錯（自大!XD)
即使曾經我被說是"任性"
我也知道，我是做得好的。
去回想過去，過去工作的感覺
做得好，是因為做回自己
輕鬆點，做回自己，事情才會做得好
做回自己，才有「存在價值」
是自己給自己的那種
哈！　是但啦，自大好，任性好，咩都好啦!

recently I am putting some efforts in thinking and facing the 'changes' that I realized on myself. 

it's about the ways of thinking life, goals and people. 

actually it's a good time of reviewing myself  

finally I come up with the conclusion that it is 'adjustments'  

 

Basic

Bachelor of Arts (Honours) Scheme in Fashion and Textiles 服裝及紡織(榮譽)文學士

明天終於行畢業禮了

09595646D YEUNG HOI YING
Bachelor of Arts (Honours) Scheme in Fashion and Textiles
服裝及紡織(榮譽)文學士

今天想起了兩年前High Dip 快畢業時寫的一篇note

過得太快的兩年 ITC HD

看完更令我想起
這個學位真得來不易
是走了很多的路
當中有過很多的努力朋友的幫助和上天給予的幸運

現在，我學習的地方叫社會
而我仍然相信
要有的都是很多的努力朋友的幫助和上天給予的幸運



2 years ago (6th November 2009)
























Tomorrow (21 November 2011)
(JUST GONNA BE A GREAT DAY! Let's take more awesome photos XDDD!!!!)

life is tough

remember this

每年都說著差不多的道理舉著差不多的例子
本人也是例子之一
說怎樣的故事都好，道理每年也只有一個
我不是甚麼好例子，因為我都是捱了很多個通頂付出了很多，
我沒有超人的身軀更不是三個腦袋六對手
但我每年都願意說著這些其實都是因為一樣的道理


「及時行樂，而已」

Today

17:12

I made a phone call that I don't want to make

..

Just didn't expect there's no excitement at that moment

剛過去的下午

努力的去丟掉一大堆不能留下的東西

又再把多一點點東西收到紙皮箱內

就這麼簡單的過程

我變得很燥很燥

心情也突然灰暗得令我全身都乏力了

然後走出街　

買了兩個紅白藍

嗯

回來仍然是做著早兩三天都做了的同一動作

眼瞪瞪的看著那大半還是空的紙皮箱